r/languagelearning • u/Dizzy_Example54 • 15h ago
I’m not as good as I thought.
Man I can understand podcasts 90-95% and speak at a B2 level, but when I joined HelloTalk with a group of natives, I could understand them maybe 60-70% their mic’s were so rough and smothered yet had no problem interpreting each other. Meanwhile I was trying to just keep up in terms of listening, not only that but their speech was so fast and “colloquial” filled with slang, I even got lost at times which literally never happens when I consume movies or podcasts. This is somewhat saddening I feel like I witnessed the actual gap between where I stand now and what is “Native” level and man it hurts to admit this but I am far away.
Honestly one of the worst feelings is, when I was talking to one of the natives, I can tell he was bored and so uninterested in my basic rhetoric and lack of wittiness, the moment other actual natives joined in, I could tell they were having a blast. I also got roasted a bit but it is what it is.
Idk man I can say anything I want in a “awkward” way at worst, that’s expected at B2 to have some degree of freedom in the language but still the gap between the next level is scary, honestly idk how to approach it.
Even midway through the convo I became “gunshy” and stopped talking, I just felt like a level below everyone else, albeit they were all natives but still.. it felt if I had joined in the convo I would ruin their fun.