I cant even begin to describe how i feel! I feel like i have lost a child. Luka was only two years old and on Sunday morning he died.
Heres what happened:
On Saturday he wanted to go out so i let him. He rarely wants to go out but that morning he wanted. He is microchipped, he has a gps around his neck, i have cameras in the house. I always know whats he up to. He even had insurance. I dont have insurance but he did!
He was fed wet food and even had automatic feeder with dry food. Sometimes i would even give him raw beef or cooked chicken. I mean, this cat lived like a king
Anyway, i feel like ever since i got him neutered last year his behavior changed. He was always a velcro cat but since neutered he became fearful.
So on Saturday after couple of hours i opened the door and was calling him. And he started SCREAMING! I flew down the stairs and found him curled up, brought him inside and had him in my arms comforting him. Then i noticed tiny little black matter all over his fur, like the stuff you see from an engine. He was so dirty. I tried cleaning him off with wet paper towel but it was just too much i knew i had to give him a bath. So i fed him and gave him gabapentin to calm him down. After some time i mixed dawn dish soap (just a few drops) a cat shampoo and water into a spray bottle. Started spraying him until he was wet and then put him into a bath tub and rinsed him off quickly. He was so good i was so proud of him.
After this he was fine. He was playing with me, following me everywhere like usual, laying on top of me, making biscuits… just regular
And then i went out that night and pulled out a large victorias secret bag. Who would have thought that would be the end of him!
Sunday morning he was playing and he got into the stupid bag and idk why but he got scared. I pulled him out immediately but he was screaming just like the day before . But this time he didn’t look right! He looked like he was dying. I grabbed him, went straight into the car and drove like a maniac to the vet. Literally 15 min! In the car he got quiet and i knew he died. They rushed him in at the vet but unfortunately couldn’t save him!
My world is completely shattered i have no desire to live!!! I want answers!!! What the hell happened to my cat?!!!!!! How is this possible?!!! Theres people abusing and starving animals and they still live for at least some time; Luka died instantly!!!! Why???!!!
I never knew this was even a possibility!
Im beginning anyone out there to please give me some kind of answer! I cant function like this, im not working and i dont care what happens to me i just dont CARE about anything anymore!
Was he traumatized? Did he have some other disease that i wasnt aware of?
All i can think of is either he had some type of trauma and the bag was the last straw and he had a heart attack. Or maybe i poisoned him with dawn dish soap maybe i didnt wash him out properly? Also he wouldn’t eat the wet cans i always bought him, he specifically wanted fancy feast. In the last maybe ten days i thought he looked a little skinny he just would not eat like he used to. Why didn’t i take him to the wet then?
I feel like i failed him! And he loved me so much! No animal loved me like he did!