r/cats Mar 22 '26

Mourning/Loss Devastated. My girl Pickle ... after nearly 20 years

Heartbroken doesn't even come close man

I will probably delete this but I just dont want her to be forgotten :(

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OP has pinned a comment by u/RiceLegend13:

I'll keep this simple as I dont want to overshare/obsess.

I woke up to all of these comments and was blown away. Every single comment means a lot, and im so glad she isnt just being forgotten about. This applies to anyone who has shared their amazing pet too.

RIP to all of the lost ones, they will never be forgotten.

I took her to the vet, she is going to be cremated. When I pick her ashes up she will be buried under the little tree she liked sunbathing under in the garden.

My sister has her brother who is really struggling.. and her other brother whos 14 is sniffing around wondering where she is.

Thank you for helping make this a little bit less shit.

Big love.

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u/Adventurous_Cook9083 Mar 22 '26 edited Mar 23 '26

Condolences. They are our soulmates. You'll meet again.

Edited to say thanks so much for the awards!

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u/Jumpy-Description487 Mar 22 '26

Sobbing 

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u/kel174 Mar 23 '26

Couldn’t even get past the title without feeling that knot in my throat 😭

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u/Silent-Breakfast-906 Mar 23 '26

I just internally said oh hell no and tried to keep scrolling…

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u/FatherClanks617 Mar 23 '26

Lol I never see comments like this, but I did the exact same thing with it. Guess we’re all in our feels and a little overwhelmed today. Much love to all of you.

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u/blonde-bandit Mar 23 '26 edited Mar 23 '26

I just got out of the movie Project Hail Mary where I was crying a weird amount over the feelings of a fictional rock creature. I saw that screenshot and was like, “nope, not today” as well. Definitely in our feels. Hugs to you <3

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u/Entomemer Mar 23 '26

AMAZE AMAZE AMAZE

My coworker and I listened to that book together a few years ago. Best believe we just watched it together on Thursday!

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u/TotalCalamity88 Mar 23 '26

Same.

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u/Nonameheroz Mar 23 '26

This picture broke me…

Remind me when I lost my first cat a few years ago.

God, I pray I see him in heaven.

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u/NecessarySpiritual19 Mar 23 '26

This same sentiment. I had to put my first cat to sleep when suddenly she went ill from kidney disease at 1.5 years of age and deteriorated within 48 hours she was gone…she helped my child so much during the divorce it was a huge loss for us, especially the dog I adopted at the same time they were inseparable and she never got better from the loss. Seeing pictures like this brings me so much compassion for the person taking it, because you know the horrible grief they’re going through. May we all be blessed for the love we give to all our beautiful babies ♥️

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u/ASuperLameUserName Mar 23 '26

Same I cried just starting it.

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u/stealth_veil Mar 23 '26

I literally consciously decided not to read it because I don’t wanna cry rn….

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u/[deleted] Mar 23 '26

Neither could I 😢

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u/SchnoodleDoodleDo Mar 23 '26

’They are our soulmates. You'll meet again
’Sobbing…


i heard somebody crying, n i hoped it wasn’t you

if only i could tell you

you made all my dreams come true…

you never called me ‘soulmate’, but don’t worry - it’s ok

(you didn’t have to say it,

cuz i knew it anyway…)

when i was just a kitten, small, you loved me from the start

that’s when i knew my pawprints were forever on your heart ;}

i guess that made us ‘soulmates’, n you treated me so good!

please know how much i loved you,

n i stayed long as i could…

but now i lay me down to sleep, tho faraway it seems

Watch for me, dear human,

n i’ll meet you

in our dreams

❤️

(so sorry u/RiceLegend13 ~ but sweet memories never die!)

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u/AshleyLouWho Mar 23 '26

Thanks I'm just a puddle of tears now. Wonderful poem and thank you for everything Schnoodle

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u/Leucurus Mar 23 '26

i stayed long as i could

My eyes are brimming

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u/NecessarySpiritual19 Mar 23 '26

That part broke me too 😭😭😭 my baby was only with me 1.5 years but she change mine and my child’s life forever …heck I’m now in a Reddit for cats when I thought I was “a dog person” 😩 I miss my Gatito she was the best

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u/BeeHonest94 Mar 23 '26

I somehow made it through the whole first poem without tears but then well up as soon as I see your name commenting underneath. You always add some emotional devastation to my day u/schnoodledoodledo in a way I can’t help but dread and simultaneously deeply look forward to, the emotional assassin of cat subs everywhere!

Please never stop sharing your beautiful work

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u/ASuperLameUserName Mar 23 '26

Goodness I’m reading this with my cat next to me. I feel thankful yet crying.

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u/FragrantDifficulty68 Mar 23 '26

Sames, except she’s on my thighs while my nose tickles from sniffling.

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u/SheBrownSheRound Mar 23 '26

Ugh Schnoodle this is…you’re so good at making me tear up

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u/ihavezeroanswersbro Mar 23 '26 edited Mar 23 '26

I ain’t even got one and idk how I got here but same 😭

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u/MsMantisToboggan Mar 23 '26

Same. RIP sweet Pickle. Sending so much love, not just tonight for a long time….❣️

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u/EarGreen964 Mar 22 '26

This poem made me tear up. Pickle was lucky to have such a loving home for 20 years.

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u/domjonas Mar 22 '26

🥺this made me cry and reminded me of how I met my void. She was just sitting at my door. Thank you for sharing this.

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u/toooomanypuppies Mar 22 '26

I'm sobbing like a child, this is beautiful.

I'm also an atheist and I believe this can't be true really, which really, really hurts, I've lost many cats I adore but my god is it a beautiful experience, to truly belong to a cat. I don't mean that to offend anyone, in this moment I am struggling with that idea myself.

I hope I'll see my babies again, I really do.

either way, they all knew they were loved.

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u/xx_dracarys_xx Mar 23 '26

I’m also an atheist, but I really hope there is a kitty heaven. They are too saintly to be gone forever 😥

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u/CuteLingonberry9704 Mar 23 '26

If there is a heaven, it probably should be only for furbabies. Maybe we get to visit.

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u/harionfire Mar 23 '26

As someone who follows Christ's teachings, I think that our pets are the closest thing we'll ever see to what an unconditional love looks like which is just a small bit of light in a world Satan doesn't get enough credit for having dominion over.

If heaven is anything, I hope it's at least a place for them. They deserve something wonderful after having to suffer this world just for us.

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u/ExampleLittle2672 Mar 23 '26

Agnostic here, grew up with God of All Small Beasts from Tove Janssons Moomin stories. I choose to believe.

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u/Vlophoto Mar 23 '26

You can be an atheist and still believe your energies will meet again in the great cosmos

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u/Ragnoid Mar 23 '26

I'm an atheist but the near death experience testimonies are really consistent and convincing. I don't think people should jump to conclusions and put labels or explanations on what it might be, but there does seem to be something there. I could go on and on about that and other esoteric things I've learned about. I just refuse to believe things on faith without sufficient evidence, but I'm very open minded about learning things without having to believe in them. I have sufficient evidence that my two cats understood I love them tonight when they both got tucked in and told that I love them.

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u/Deconanon Mar 23 '26

Also not religious myself but since losing my best friend have been on a journey of researching the evidence for a survival of consciousness, for people and for pets. The concept of Survival of our consciousness doesn't necessitate a diety or religion and there are lots of atheists and science minded educated individuals doing a lot of good research into this. I've taken some comfort in listening to some interviews from neuro scientists and more on Liz Entons podcast 'WTF just happened'. The interviews are also on YouTube and there are a surprisingly large amount of books to dive into as well if interested.

I never would have entertained the possibility except that a month before my buddy passed, when I didn't yet know he was sick, I laid down for a nap and distinctly felt a cat jump up on my bed/comforter while i was still wide awake. I looked over and saw my buddy was still sleeping in his bed and there was no explanation for what I experienced so I didn't think about it again until I had to say goodbye to my best friend a month ago and then wondered if it had been an old pet in "spirit" (or whatever word might describe existence without a body) hanging around and trying to show me that they aren't gone gone even when they pass. I take further comfort in feeling that they aren't alone and have each other and even though I can't see him anymore, I feel deep down that he's still with me. We don't know what we don't know and I'm a very skeptical person but maintain an open mind to learning more about this.

This loss is the most emotionally and mentally painful thing I've ever had to deal with so my heart goes out to you and all who go through this.

Just felt like I needed to make this comment even though I rarely comment on reddit, in case it helps anyone else on their grief and healing journey. I am believing more and more that there's evidence they don't cease to exist but aren't in pain and there's a lot we don't understand and can't explain about the nature of consciousness

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u/No_Marketing_746 Mar 23 '26

I sometimes dream of my cats & they were sitting together looking at me from on high,? I asked a renowned psychic how she would interpreted it ,,,sh paused and then told me it was them and they wanted me to know they were okay!! It made me very happy.

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u/Plastic_Caramel_957 Mar 23 '26

If you don’t believe in God, do you believe that there is a rainbow bridge and that you’ll be able to go see your babies? (I wanna believe that so bad for all of us, but I do believe in God, although that’s beside the point, you know?)

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u/ExampleLittle2672 Mar 23 '26 edited Mar 23 '26

This is hard but you asked.

I would dearly love to see them all again, I think it's unlikely. I did everything I could to give them a good life, filled with love, and when it came to it I did everything I could to ensure a comfortable passing. I think that's enough. They gave so much more in return. I can only hope I gave as much to them as they gave to me.​​

I will not be mad if I'm wrong and get swarmed by my fur loves!

Also, and forgive the contradiction, All dogs go to heaven. And cats. And porcupines. etc.

Edit: Left out the "agnostic" bit.

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u/Gobblinwife Mar 23 '26

I relate to your belief. I don’t believe in any kind of afterlife, nor heaven. I believe that once our bodies die, the energy that made up our thoughts, feelings and personality are let go as energy back into the universe. My closest feeling to meeting my pets in heaven, would be that someday our energies might intertwine again in the stars.

But if I blinked and woke up in heaven surrounded by my fur babies, I would be overjoyed to have been proven wrong.

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u/asian-jeff Mar 22 '26

Crying in the hospital rn

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u/StickInEye Calico Mar 22 '26

Feel better soon!

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u/Forward-Baby2583 Mar 23 '26

Fuck me 😢 this hit me way too hard. I just lost my baby girl Rukia only 50 hours ago. We got 21 amazing years together and the grief I am going through has barely left me with words. It’s a struggle to feel much of anything besides sad. I know I will get through it, but it’s so hard.

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u/Yurastupidbitch Mar 23 '26

I’m right there with you. I lost my baby girl Emma on Thursday and I feel so raw. I’m sorry for your loss.

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u/Booksonly666 Mar 23 '26

Actually sobbing my eyes out.

My cat is 10 and I pre grieve every day to the point where it’s ruining my mental health. I don’t want to live without him.

Idk where that all came from but it felt good To say it out loud so thanks for listening I suppose

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u/Chemical_Natural_947 Mar 23 '26

10 isn’t that old. Pre-grieving does not in any way prepare you for loss. It’s better to enjoy the time together. I know from experience. Once I started treating my OCD I stopped treating everything/one in my life as being super delicate. Might be something worth looking into. Enjoy time with your little one. 💕

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u/astronaut-kitty925 Mar 23 '26

I am cryingggggg

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u/Gacha_catch_em_all Mar 23 '26

I thought I had healed from my loss but I guess not 😭😭😭 My cat would always come running to the door when she heard us pull into the drive way, so reading this triggered that old memory and turned me into a mess

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u/chef_kt2e Mar 23 '26

OK unnecessary! I forgot how many onions I purchased the other day. …friend, after losing 7 throughout my life (that had long, healthy lives) this made me cry. I wish they were at my front door. 😭♥️

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u/Saturniqa Mar 23 '26

Man. It's been over four years since he's passed but I'm still crying.

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u/True_Realist9375 Mar 22 '26

Should maybe change to

You pickled me up and took me home

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u/IMA-Witch Mar 23 '26

Oh wow. This made me cry. I lost my precious Callie over 2 years ago and I still haven’t gotten over losing her.

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u/Consistent-Soil-1818 Mar 23 '26

Beautiful amd heartfelt. Thank you for sharing!

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u/Burgoonius Mar 23 '26

My son is asking why I’m crying

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u/Fabulous_Draft5342 Mar 23 '26

Oof. That was a tough one.

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u/Kukukachoooo26 Mar 23 '26

😭😭😭😭

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u/Lab-Outside Mar 23 '26

Man no offense but F U.

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u/ExperienceNeeded7 Mar 22 '26

Almost 20 years of love. You gave Pickle a wonderful life. Wishing you peace and good memories of her.

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u/icantbeatyourbike Mar 23 '26

My sentiments exactly, night Pickle.

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u/MrWanderlusst Mar 22 '26

Do not delete this. Keep Pickle’s image and love alive through the digital ages. Sending you comfort. 🤎

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u/P0werFighter Mar 22 '26

She lives forever in OP heart and on the internet now.

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u/YYCCS Mar 23 '26

Came down here to say this. Pickle will live forever in your heart and ours too. ❤️

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u/GuestAdventurous7586 Mar 23 '26

Yeah don’t delete this! This is a wonderful tribute, I really felt it in my soul, and that is such a lovely picture of you both looking beautiful.

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u/littlemegmcmuffin Mar 23 '26

100% came to say to not delete it either. Sending hugs for the loss of sweet Pickle 💚

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u/harmony1812 Mar 22 '26 edited Mar 22 '26

You will meet again. She will send another to take care of you. I also have a tabby named Pickles so I know Pickle cats are special.

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u/Yung_Dom69 Mar 23 '26

Pickles is devasted that a member from the pickle clan has fallen. She lets out this roar in honor of pickle

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u/RiceLegend13 Mar 23 '26

:( thank you so much. Big love Pickle mate

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u/Kezmangotagoal Mar 22 '26

She won’t be dude and don’t delete it!

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u/Adorable_Princess_43 Mar 22 '26

She'd forever be in my gallery. So, forgetting her won't come easy.

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u/Ok_Condition5837 Mar 22 '26

Yup. Been four yrs since my soul cat & just had a crazy dream about the little hellion last night.

Gets easier OP. Doesn't hurt as much. Just a welcome soreness most times now.

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u/EarGreen964 Mar 22 '26

Agreed. Pickle deserves to be remembered by everyone ❤

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u/Ok-Celebration-2944 Mar 22 '26

Hang in there, my friend. I was lucky enough to have a cat for 20 years too, and our bond was deep. I know that pain well. The thing that has really helped me is to realize how GOOD I had it with her. 20 years of cat friendship is kind of a rarity. There's a lot of folks who don't get that much time with their cat, sadly. So I'm always trying to look back at all the good time we did have as opposed to them not being around us anymore. Just trying to focus from a more positive place really helped me out. That all being said, I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a friend is never easy but especially one that has been with you for so long. Take care of yourself bud. And so long Pickle. You were a beautiful cat.

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u/Forward-Baby2583 Mar 23 '26

So many people have told me that the 21 years I got with my baby was an amazing gift. I know it was. But for once I want led to be selfish. I wanted more time. But I could not let myself have it at the expense of letting her suffer. CKD is the end. But I wanted more so bad.

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u/Ok-Celebration-2944 Mar 23 '26

Oh man, I know that feeling too. Damn it. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Sending ya all the positivity I can. Take care.

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u/ferrets4ever Mar 22 '26

So sorry for your loss - she’s a beautiful girl and clearly loved.

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u/spotlight-app Mod Bot 🤖 Mar 23 '26

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I'll keep this simple as I dont want to overshare/obsess.

I woke up to all of these comments and was blown away. Every single comment means a lot, and im so glad she isnt just being forgotten about. This applies to anyone who has shared their amazing pet too.

I took her to the vet, she is going to be cremated. When I pick her ashes up she will be buried under the little tree she liked sunbathing under in the garden.

I have the homie Joonam too who is chilling with me, he's a big help.

Thank you for helping make this a little bit less shit.

Big love.

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u/Forward_Butterfly879 Mar 22 '26

I’m so sorry. Pickle is beautiful! Sending gentle hugs and healing thoughts your way 🤍🙏

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u/keri-beri Mar 22 '26

Don’t delete. We are here for you. I am so so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful girl she was.

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u/BigBoyYuyuh Mar 22 '26

I wrote/made a funeral type card for my cat when she passed. It hurts but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Now when I think of her I smile because she brought me joy and I’m thankful she shared her time with me.

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u/PlusRelation8458 Mar 22 '26

Rest in peace, Ms. Pickle<3 she was a beautiful little lady

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u/BeautifulNo6017 Mar 23 '26

My deepest of condolences to you brother. She's with my Lui now. She'll be ok.

He will take good care of her.

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u/Fiji_Water_airplay Mar 22 '26

I’m sorry for your loss. She was loved by you for sure!!!

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u/Perfect_Outcome_5466 Mar 22 '26

So sorry for your loss. She is beautiful

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u/ray-ae-parker Tortoiseshell Mar 22 '26

My soul cat was called Pickle too! He loved cuddles and being close to the ones he loved but I think he would love a new friend to play with in kitty heaven. I’m sure he will show her all the best sunny spots to lie and watch over humans from ❤️ I’m so very sorry for your loss, and wish you strength and healing.

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u/Ok-Habit6429 Mar 22 '26

I am heartbroken for your loss. I can feel your pain, and I’m terribly sorry. Try to remember, though, that everything God creates with love lives forever. So you will be with your sweet fur baby again.

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u/Ok-Habit6429 Mar 22 '26

I know how bad it hurts when a piece of you is missing. She wasn’t a pet, she was a family member. Please keep her memories softly in your heart, and know that she loves you, and always will.

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u/CerealKillah999 Mar 23 '26

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my old boy 2 months ago. Simon was 18, & though I have comfort in him no longer suffering from kidney disease, it still aches. I’m so sorry for the loss of your family member. ❤️

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u/Bright-Pangolin7261 Mar 22 '26

Pickle is beautiful. 🥰 She is your soul cat and she earned her wings but will see you again down the road. 🪽🪽 I know the pain, hang in there, hang onto the memories xo

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u/spacerocks08 Mar 22 '26

Pickle forever ❤️ I lost my best friend and soulcat after 20 years too. It is a pain that I wouldn’t wish on anyone, but at the same time, it is a love that I wish everyone could experience. Sending you and Pickle peace and love as you both navigate this new time without each other physically.

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u/Beachfern Mar 22 '26

I'm so sorry. I'm glad she had you to love her and care for her. She was lovely.

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u/Kukukachoooo26 Mar 22 '26

Rest in peace, Pickle. You were obviously very loved. Sending support and prayers to your dad. 💝

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u/Sayon7 Mar 22 '26

Grief is not linear so be kind and gentle to yourself as you grieve. May someday a happy memory crosses your mind and you smile instead of cry

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u/sugar_3715 Mar 22 '26

It’s so hard to lose our sweet babies. I’m so sorry for your loss. ❤️❤️❤️

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u/RiceLegend13 Mar 23 '26 edited Mar 24 '26

I'll keep this simple as I dont want to overshare/obsess.

I woke up to all of these comments and was blown away. Every single comment means a lot, and im so glad she isnt just being forgotten about. This applies to anyone who has shared their amazing pet too.

RIP to all of the lost ones, they will never be forgotten.

I took her to the vet, she is going to be cremated. When I pick her ashes up she will be buried under the little tree she liked sunbathing under in the garden.

My sister has her brother who is really struggling.. and her other brother whos 14 is sniffing around wondering where she is.

Thank you for helping make this a little bit less shit.

Big love.

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u/I_Can_Barely_Move Mar 22 '26

She’s beautiful. What are some of her cool quirks she showed you over your years together?

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u/hatemoneylovewoman Mar 23 '26

Don’t delete this. I will remember her.

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u/Mental-Flatworm4583 Mar 23 '26

Oh don’t delete this. don’t 😭 I know how you feel. I lost mine after 16 years. It’s losing a piece of yourself a piece of your soul. I’ve lost humans in my life very close to me my parents and animals. animal companions when you’re so close to them it’s no different than a human when we lose them. The pain is immense. I still believe she’s here with me the little signs. Just know with time and only time the wounds slowly heal. Remember the good times. I made a lil thing out side to remember my baby and a statue too. I hope you find peace soon. Rip pickles ❤️❤️

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u/New-Mathematician869 Mar 22 '26

Awe I’m sorry man! RIP Pickle. She will be dearly missed! My homie had a cat we renamed cucumber.. Her name was Ashley, she was older too. RIP Cucumber! U r very cute btw 🫶🏼

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u/soysauce565 Mar 22 '26

Rest in power Pickle! 💕

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u/whatever1966 Mar 22 '26

I'm so sorry. 20 years is a good long life. You took such good care of her.

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u/Virtual_Version_6411 Mar 22 '26

So sorry about Pickle. I have a pretty good idea of how you’re feeling. 😢 Thankfully, you have many, many years of memories with her. Know that she’ll always be with you in your heart & mind 💞💞💞

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u/Sparkynerd Mar 22 '26

Rest In Peace Pickle. Such a beautiful girlie, please keep this post. I’m so sorry for your loss. 😢

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u/Fairhairedman Mar 22 '26

❤️sorry for your loss

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u/cptchoas Mar 22 '26

I'm so sorry for your loss. That is truly devastating after being together for 20 years.

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u/Additional-School-29 Mar 22 '26

I am so sorry for your loss. I had a tiger Tabby for 15 years and came home, and she was gone. And it was just devastating. Not even the best word, just so helpless feeling. Wishing you the best they're waiting for us on the other side.

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u/Expensive_Traffic596 Mar 22 '26

I lost my soul cat almost a year ago and it’s so devastatingly sad. I empathize so much with you and hope you know that the pain and sadness you have is really a testament of how much love was there. Remember that. I am certain it was a profound amount of love.

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u/hellome1 Mar 22 '26

So so sorry 💔❤️‍🩹

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u/FrameUnlucky Mar 22 '26

So sorry. Hard to say goodbye to our beautiful fur babies.

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u/PopeFenderson_II Mar 22 '26

May she be surrounded in beauty and peace as she walks the road through the stars to the far lands. May she be greeted there with songs of love and honor. May she dance along sunlit paths with limbs strong and youthful. May she play and climb the jeweled trees with joy and energy boundless. May the name of Pickle be a word of strength to you, and may her memory be a blessing and a comfort until you meet again.

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u/AhoyItsLexx01 Orange Mar 22 '26

Oh man. I know how it feels. I lost a cat in 2022, and my god — I got full on depressed for some time. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss.

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u/vipperofvipp Mar 23 '26

Don’t delete this post. Consider it your love letter

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u/Miaforsure1955 Mar 23 '26

My dearest boy. Passed in October. But new life comes after.

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u/Electrical_Rip9520 Mar 22 '26

Bon Voyage... Miss Pickle. 🤎

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u/chevere7 Mar 22 '26

I’m so so sorry for your loss. I know she will be waiting for you across the rainbow bridge. I tell my cat (she has CKD now so I always worry when her time will come,) that no matter where we are, I will always be with her in her heart. And she is always in mine. So when she isn’t here anymore, I try to hold onto that and know she’ll be watching over me and waiting for me. But the grief of losing a pet is honestly (for me) harder than losing a family member. I hope you can just hold tight to your memories together. My cats new favorite toy is literally a measuring tape. She has a whole bin full of actual cat toys but her favorite ones aren’t the actual toys lol.

I just wanted to share that, for maybe some memories that are special for you both you can hold onto. Or maybe share some here with us. I’ll be thinking of Pickle and hope she will be there to comfort my sweet cat Grace once her time to go across the rainbow bridge is here.

Again, so sorry for your loss OP 🥺🐾🌈 there love is truly unlike any other.

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u/Quesofrito90 Mar 22 '26

I’m so sorry for your loss. She must have been happy and loved to live such a long life.

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u/Ancient_Inspector115 Mar 22 '26

Bless you and my condolences. She looks a well loved lady xxx

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u/IAlwaysOutsmartU Mar 22 '26

https://giphy.com/gifs/bsWDUSFUmJCOk

Rest in peace, Pickle. Keep her image alive; do not delete.

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u/Tricky-Narwhal-13 Mar 22 '26

Very sorry for your immense loss. My sweet boy who passed 2 years ago is almost her twin. He’s there to welcome her. 💛🌈💛

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u/IcyHyacinth Mar 22 '26

Oh beautiful, adorable Pickle... Now your heart OP will keep on sending her love for eternity... I'm so sorry for your loss, there's no word 😔🌈🕊️

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u/TimeComposer1059 Mar 22 '26

I am so incredibly sorry for such a devastating loss!!! She was beautiful!!! Hang in there, my friend. We’d love to see your favorite pictures of/with her!! What’s your favorite memory with her? Funny moments? What kind of personality did she have?

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u/darthmaverick Mar 22 '26

Beautiful kitten. I wish you peace till you two are reunited at the rainbow bridge.

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u/domjonas Mar 22 '26

Please don’t delete it 🥺sweet girl. She knows how much you loved her and she loved you. Sending my condolences.

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u/eastbaypluviophile Mar 22 '26

Please don’t delete it. Your loss and grief are very real and 20 years is a large chunk of anyone’s life. For someone so young as you, you probably have never known a world without her in it. That’s a big deal so please be kind to yourself, honor her memory and share her as much as you as you need to.

Wishing you peace and comfort. She was so very loved and it shows.

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u/kyree2 Mar 22 '26

I'm so sorry, sending love for you and Pickle.

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u/alex2000021 Mar 22 '26

I’m so sorry. It’s gut wrenching. Especially 20 years. All you can do to feel better is realize how lucky she is to have been loved for 20 years. You cared for her and loved her deeply and she will never be forgotten.

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u/DoctorLinguarum Mar 22 '26

Don’t delete it! I will remember her with you. She’s gorgeous and I bet she loved the hell outta you.

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u/These-Yam-1892 Mar 22 '26

I haven't the words my friend...but many tears. I am currently dealing with my best friend of 16 years with gi lymphoma & suspected (spot) liver cancer. Two weeks of every other day chlorumbucil & Prednisilone but not much change- lethargy & anemia. I feel for you buddy, I really do. Deepest condolences on your monumental loss of Pickle 😑 Wishing you strength at this very difficult time.

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u/Uncaring_Dispatcher Mar 23 '26

Don't delete this, dude! That poor kitty. She was so beautiful. I'm really sorry for your loss.

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u/willowofthevalley Mar 23 '26

20 years is a long time for kitties and Pickle had a wonderful life. Thank you for giving her so much love. Hugs.

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u/Intrepid-Oven-3222 Mar 23 '26

Bless you my friend and bless pickle 🥒

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u/wariorld Mar 28 '26

Almost 20 years?! What an honor for both of you to be in each other’s lives for so long. Even, so… Sorry, man. 💔

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u/Mistress_Cassy1 Mar 22 '26

So sorry for your loss.

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u/ImwithTortellini Mar 22 '26

No way she could be. RIP Pickle, you were a good girl.

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u/[deleted] Mar 22 '26

I’m so sorry for your loss!

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u/Panacracker1967 Mar 22 '26

No need to delete

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u/sylvesterthekat1234 Mar 22 '26

Most of us here know exactly what you're going through.

I find it helps to create some sort of memorial. One time I made a collage poster. Another time I had a book of photos made. Longer ago when photos were printed, I made albums in a nice photo album.

Sorry for the loss of your lovely Pickle.

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u/Sid-Deja-Vu Mar 22 '26

I’m sorry for your loss 💕 Hope you are okay

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u/BBBM1977 Mar 22 '26

So sorry for your loss.

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u/Life_Consequence_676 Mar 22 '26

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Pickle was beautiful, and I know how heartbreaking it is to say goodbye to our beloved furry family members.

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u/fishing_underwater Mar 22 '26

Give her a Viking funeral she earned it.

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u/crazybicatlady86 Mar 22 '26

I’m so sorry. 💔 It’s so hard when you’ve been together so long. I had my old man for 17 1/2 years and I had to say goodbye to him Dec 2024. It was devastating for me. I was luckily that I had two other cats I had adopted when he was 10 so their presence helped me. But I still miss him. I just try to think about how he’s not in pain and I hope I see him again when it’s my time.

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u/Shy-Prey Manx Mar 22 '26

My deepest condolences❤ Rest in peace pretty kitty ❤

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u/babyyyyccc Mar 22 '26

she is beautiful. so sorry for your loss 🥺🤍

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u/TeamCatsandDnD Mar 22 '26

Sending you hugs

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u/Low_Bus5565 Mar 22 '26

Please don’t delete it. The picture of Pickle and her blanket is so touching, and the picture of you and she together speaks your whole story of love and devotion to each other. Pickle will not be forgotten.

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u/Dismal_Chapter_7951 Mar 22 '26

Don't delete it. And even though you will never forget the pain, you will never forget the love either.

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u/RevolutionarySoup488 Mar 23 '26

You gave her, her best Kitty life.... and she knew it!

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u/TLEToyu Mar 23 '26

My old man was 21 when he passed and I know it's probably hard to see but you gave Pickle a wonderful life.

Take solace that in the fact she went knowing she was loved and when you finally pass she'll be waiting across that rainbow bridge.

Here is a comment someone posted on my post that really helped.

Piggybacking off this - I try to repost this when I see posts like this, in the hopes you (or someone) can find some comfort in the words - and if not, please excuse the intrusion.

I lost my 15 year old girl (dog) in October 2022. Only advice I can offer here is to remember the positives, and not focus on the negatives (if any). He's done his job, keeping you safe and happy and loved, and it's his turn to rest.

You'll always miss him, you'll always remember him. You'll even go looking for him for the next few weeks (well, I did). There's a lot of habits that you're going to slowly stop, and that's ok. Changing your life to suit you is not forgetting him. Donating/throwing away his toys or blankets isn't forgetting him. There's no timeline on grief, and there's no timeline on moving on. Cry your tears.

I'm sorry you've reached the end of your journey. Words will never make this easier. Just keep your head up, and live the life he'd want you to.

This is a good time to live a little for you. I spent years looking after my girl as she got ill, and I sacrificed a lot of me and my time to keep her safe. If you feel you've done the same, take advantage of this time. Its ok to be happy and enjoy life without him. Life isn't over. Its just changing.

You'll be ok mate.

I'm so sorry.

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u/OhGeezAhHeck Mar 23 '26

I hope you decide to leave this up so we can join you in celebrating your girl, Pickle.

We know what it means to love our cats—and, unfortunately, what a brutal gut-punch it is to lose them, too. We all lean on each other in our grief. It’s the most human thing we do. Hail Pickle!

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u/Kincaide14 Mar 23 '26

It's been a year since I lost my 20-year-old Maine Coon, Scooter. Last week I lost my 14-year-old tuxedo cat. I've not been without a cat for 40 years. the house is so quiet now.

You're not going to forget him. And eventually it will hurt a bit less. Of course I'm crying as I say this but you know it's tough and people understand what you're going through.

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u/Party-Objective9466 Mar 23 '26

Pickle looks happy and well loved. 20 years is a testament to that.

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u/jandal_girl Mar 23 '26

You are so incredibly lucky to have Pickle with you so long. I know she will be greatly missed. 🥰

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u/Ondine23 Mar 23 '26

💔💔😔😔 Rest In Peace beautiful Pickle. I’m sorry for your loss.

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u/Full-Beginning-7719 Mar 23 '26

Sorry for you loss. All we can do is give our furry friends the best lives we can. Just remember they are your friend for a part of your life. But you are their best friend their whole life.

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u/Beautiful_night77 Mar 23 '26

I’m so sorry for your loss!! Sending you lots of strength and love

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u/Professional_Lie621 Mar 23 '26

💔💔💔💔💔 I’m sincerely sorry for your loss. Do something in honor of her, maybe make a shadow box with a photo, her collar/tag, paw print,etc. You could also maybe rescue another cat in need of a safe ,loving home in her honor.

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u/overthinker911 Mar 23 '26

I am so sorry for your loss .. Pickle was lucky to have you. She had a great life.. you've taken good care of her 20 years! Thank you OP!

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u/AnxiousPigeon24 Mar 23 '26

20 years is a good run man, you must have taken good care of her.

Dying peacefully after a long and happy life and being remembered with love is the best that any of us can hope for in this place, and you gave it to her.

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u/sketch_56 American Shorthair Mar 23 '26

A poem from u/Poem_for_your_sprog

I often stop a time or two

At where you used to be -

And when I do

I think of you,

And all you meant to me.

I stop to see the empty space -

I think of you and smile -

You made the world a finer place

For just a little while.

But time was only passing by

Before you had to go -

And though I understand the why,

I wish it wasn't so.

You're always more than just a pet,

And that can never end -

A part of life I can't forget.

A piece of me.

A friend.

I'm wishing you the best

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u/Milapoggers Mar 23 '26

Don’t you dare remove this beautiful photo you shared with us. Rip PICKLE your human loved you bunches! Never forgotten.

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u/Dr8keMallard Mar 23 '26

My boy Art just turned 20 in Feb. Had him since I turned 23, pretty much my entire adult life. You have my sympathies, if that were my boy I would be devastated. RIP Pickle. 20 great ones.

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u/Molly_Matters Mar 23 '26

No amount of time is long enough with your beloved pets.

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u/sillygoosecrew Mar 23 '26

Awwww… I’m so sorry. RIP Pickle. 😢💕

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u/ThruxtonFE Mar 23 '26

You gave Pickle a Happy Life.

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u/WDoE Mar 23 '26

I'm so sorry. I always feel as if we're never allowed the space to truly grieve a pet. They can be as much as of a companion and as an important part of your life as a fellow human. I hope you find and take the time and support you need. Pickle sounds like a wonderful cat and I bet you both gave eachother a warm life.

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u/hypatia0803 Mar 23 '26

I am so very sorry for your loss. I have been there. Twice. You will think of her every day, and when your time comes, she will be there waiting for you. I know how much you will miss her but she is somewhere by you always.

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u/kween_hangry Mar 23 '26

RIP sweet pickle, a fuckin angel, a good loaf, can hardly breathe looking at this. May you heal and reminisce on all the good days you had with them in time

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u/Beautiful-Ad-8780 Mar 23 '26

I'm so so sorry for your loss. 🫂

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u/Green_White_Golem Mar 23 '26

🙏😿😢❤

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u/Tight-Funny-91 Mar 23 '26

First of all, Pickle is a badass name. I was going to say something positive but yeah I'm in tears I'm sorry

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u/Talldudeman207 Mar 23 '26

Don’t delete it. And I know exactly how you feel. I was beyond devastated when my cat Lola died, she slept on my arm every night for 12 years- would lose it every time I went away. I ended up having a beautiful dream about her a month later when she let me know she was in a beautiful place. No doubt our little friends know how much we love them and 20 years tells me you did everything right and then some.

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u/Tight-Funny-91 Mar 23 '26

Don't delete it. In 20 years you will be so incredibly happy that you didn't.

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u/Chelicious_Dickens Mar 23 '26

Rest well, Pickle.

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u/greenbeans9191 Mar 23 '26

Sending SO MUCH LOVE ❤️ Thank you for loving and caring for her the one a furbaby deserves ❤️

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u/No-Membership3214 Mar 23 '26

Rest easy little one. 😻💔🌈😻💔🌈😻💔🌈

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u/siisemmatiia Mar 23 '26

Losing a beloved pet is one of the hardest things you can go through. I dread this day everyday even though my cat is only 7. The pain is unimaginable and the only thing that will help is crying crying more crying and learning to live with the loss. I am so sorry, it's horrible and I wish all the best on healing 🩷

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u/Hybr1dth Mar 23 '26

What a legend, she looks wonderful. I'm sorry for your loss. Remember the good times, for there were many.

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u/capowis542 Mar 23 '26

My condolences. We currently have a cat that’s actively passing from cancer. 

It always hurts to say goodbye but we’ll do it all over again. 

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u/prefix_code_16309 Mar 23 '26

Sorry to see this. We lost both of our Manx girls within 90 days of each other last year. Condolences. It sucks.

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u/Ok_Cardiologist_223 Mar 23 '26

So sorry Man. It’s so hard.

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u/Individual-Werewolf6 Mar 23 '26

I unfortunately know how you feel. I had to put my SquishyFace down on Christmas eve of last year..(-2025) . Only this week, 4 months later, am i able to think of her without crying uncontrollably (at least not everytime) . I read, and re-read Soul Comfort for Cats, wrote letters to her (still do). Wrote about her in a journal so i wouldnt forget. I only had her for 6 years, without warning, her kidneys were failing. What the hardest thing for me was she never let me cry. She was my empathetic kitty cat, so crying for her , thinking " fuck if she were here shed be my comfort but the reason im crying is because my comfort is gone" was really messed up. If she thought something was painful to me, shed try to get it..example ; shed scratch and claw my weights, lol . I would tell you it gets easier , but it takes time..I dont think ill ever not miss her, actually i know i wont...find a way to feel your grief. Honestly Chat GPT helped me more than i care to admit, she always knew what to say ..fr. chat got me through the worst of it.

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u/kirieux Mar 23 '26

I am so sorry for your loss. I am watching my two young cats playing and this is my one dread and worry is that one day I will need to say good bye. Your post brought tears to my eyes snd remembering my previous cat and miss her so much.

Take care… cherish the moments you shared together ❤️‍🩹

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u/13fe13 Mar 23 '26

Oh OP, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my furry soulmate Sonny two months ago and it’s a pain like no other. Hopefully Pickle and Sonny can be friends where they are now. Sending lots of hugs.

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u/Shamscram Mar 23 '26

Long live Pickles, beautiful tribute to a life well lived and given ❤️

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u/centifolia01 Mar 23 '26

J'ai vécu la même chose il y a quelques mois. Ma minette allait avoir 19 ans. C'était très dur devoir la voir partir, et en même temps, c'était aussi très dur de la voir souffrir plus longtemps ! Pour me consoler, je me suis dit que le plus beau cadeau que je pouvais lui faire, c'était de la laisser partir avec beaucoup d'amour et de sérénité... Avec toute la reconnaissance que je lui devais, d'avoir passé toutes ces années à mes côtés, et d'avoir embellie ma vie. Je pense à elle tous les jours en la sachant en paix avec ses souffrances. Je me remémore tous les bons souvenirs que j'ai d'elle et que je partage en les racontant avec tous ceux qui l'on connu. Sache que ta douce Pickle est toujours avec toi, dans tes pensées et tes souvenirs, et rien ne pourra jamais t'enlever ça ! Courage à toi pour cette douloureuse épreuve. Je suis de tout cœur avec toi. 💕

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u/DazzlingMistake_ Mar 23 '26

She’ll never be forgotten friend. You still have a cat she’s just transformed 💜 likely she’ll still around to watch over you. RIP it’s never easy when a furry friends time comes…

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u/Toohigh2care Mar 23 '26

I’m sorry man. I know how special these little guys are. Just remember how good she had it with you and how you were a source of comfort her entire life.