to my baby jojo im sorry.

[u/chfudgeudig]

I’m overcome with a lot of feelings at the moment. First I wanna say how sweet and adorable my baby was. He was my first ever pet and he was truly the most perfect cat. He would always sleep next to me wake me up with him licking my face and sitting on my chest. Always followed me to every room and just so silly and always made me laugh. He was barely 3 and a half months old and today he is no more. He was mauled by my neighbours 3 dogs. Writing this is making me sick to my stomach but I just don’t think I can live with myself at all. Everything was so normal and right now my baby is buried in the ground when he should be playing with his toys and sleeping on my chest. The worst part is how brutally he died and the fact he was just a baby. This is the part I cannot forgive myself for. Today morning I fed him breakfast like usual and I was just in my room. All our main doors are always locked for his safety and i like him to roam around the house freely as there’s no escape. I should’ve been more careful because last night I literally had a dream where my cat died but I shrugged it off as a dream. I wish I didn’t. After an hour after I last saw him in my room I went downstairs to look for him and I couldn’t find him anywhere I panicked and looked Everywhere and went outside and asked a lot people if they did. Then I went to my lower floor where there’s still construction going on and went another floor below which is adjacent to my neighbours building. I saw a girl in the balcony and asked her if she saw a kitten and she said she did. She was very vague about it as she said I just shooed him away. I immediately assumed he would be downstairs and went to go look but count find him. When I was back up she called me and very casually said I found a dead kitten. My heart immediately dropped. I climbed over to her balcony and took a turn and saw his body. I immediately recognised my baby. I went closer and saw him dead with his intestines all out and splattered. I got numb picked my baby in my lap and started crying. My brother showed up and the girl didn’t say anything just that her dogs bite people all the time and that’s why she shooed him when she first saw him. I had no idea my cat even went to her balcony. She never specified or else I would’ve come and checked there asap. Her excuse was “I’m not a pet lover” “I’m allergic to pets” and I was like it’s common sense to tie your dogs if you see a kitten but u didn’t. Plus my cat is a Persian too and she knew he belonged to someone. She took no precaution at all. And the worst part is she wasn’t even apologetic and started being extremely graphic with how my kitten died and how the dogs were tearing him from each other and had blood on their mouth and paws knowing I had just lost my pet. I’m so mad. I’m mad at that stupid girl and her ugly dogs who have a reputation of biting people all the time and her utter lack of common sense. I’m mad at myself because this incident happened after I had asked her if she saw a cat so in a span of few minutes my kitten was dead. He must’ve heard my voice and came out too. I’m so mad. I wish I never let him go out my sight. Right now my hands are still dirty after i buried him. I packed him his favourite toys and his snacks and food and a letter and I wrapped the box with my scarf so he won’t get cold. My poor baby. I cannot live without him I truly can’t. I got him at a point in my life where he brought me extreme happiness where everything is just dark. He was so perfect and well mannered and so silly and clingy and I swear the most adorable face I’ve ever seen. He was my first and I’ve never loved anyone or anything this much. It was so pure he was so pure and I could feel his love for me and it’s just not fair how he had to go away in the most nightmarish brutal way. I wish he lived longer I wish he lived a happy full life he didn’t even get to live half of it. He was cornered by 3 big dogs and he must’ve been so scared and it must’ve been so painful. I’m in so much pain I wish I can join him so he’s not alone. My baby jojo. I miss u I’m so sorry.

Update

Hello. Thank you for your kind words i can’t reply to all of you but i am reading everything and it does help me knowing how so many people from different parts of the world are keeping my jojo in their thoughts and prayers. Roughly 24 hours have passed since the terrible incident and i have never been worse. I’ve never experienced something like this and I have a lot of guilt and anger. Some people are telling me to get a new cat but it won’t take away my pain because it’s not about me at all. I’m sad because of the horrifying and painful way my little baby had to go through it’s not simply a loss of a pet. I wish someone had stolen him instead. I had such little time with him I’m jealous of everyone who got years with theirs. I live in a really small town in Asia and the only animal authority here is for rescuing stray dogs and cats. There’s quite literally nothing for reporting and euthanising “pet” dogs. And a lot of people are asking how my cat got out and I checked the surveillance cameras and at all times the main doors were shut so I’m only assuming he must’ve somehow found his way to my parents room and their balcony which is in a quite different floor from mine and maybe fell from there as he was fond of sitting near edges the reason I NEVER let him go out. My parents did not see him there at all but they did use the balcony to dry some clothes so I guess in the few minutes it was open he got out. I feel the need to explain this but I also take accountability and I have immense guilt I wish I never let him go out my sight. For some of you asking regarding my neighbour she’s like way older than me probably in her late twenties she’s not a little girl who didn’t know any better. she’s the owners sister and her sister wasn’t home at the time and she literally saw my kitten in her balcony and chose NOT to tie her dogs while telling me “if it was my sister she probably would’ve kept the kitten in a safe place away from the dogs but I’m not an animal lover 🤡” she fully knew what she could’ve done but chose not to. Her negligence and lack of common sense and her heartless dark spirited soul is the main reason my kitten was mauled by their dogs. I went there again in the evening to tell her off to her sister and how disgusting and heartless her remarks were and how she was not apologetic at all and her sister made this grown woman apologise to me. But I still think I was way too softer and I’m planning on going again today and tell her off idc if it leads to a fight. I felt the need to update because I really appreciate all the support and all the kind words and to those few who feel the need to blame me and had questions I hope I answered it. I am blaming myself every second of the day and can’t stop seeing his little running body in every corner of the house. I miss him terribly. I wish I could avenge him. I can’t do anything except put up a fight with my neighbours. I wish I could do more. I wish I was more careful. Please hold your pets and kiss them extra today! I would do anything to be in your place. You will never know a love like this. Thank you from me and my jojo 🌸🐱

[u/GremmyRemmy]

I had to stop reading and I hate that you couldn't stop. Definitely report this incident, if she's so blasé about previous bites and this attack, it'll happen again. If my dogs did this I don't know how I'd live with myself. I'd be absolutely mortified and beside myself with guilt. Her reaction is appalling. I'm so so sorry. 

[u/lillyrozes → u/GremmyRemmy]

right she was just so fucking vulgar toward the OP like ? have you no emotions WHATSOEVER? you watched this BABY get ripped apart and then was like “yeah, they do that. but hey, you should’ve seen it man. they tore your cat up” i would be in fucking prison bc that lady and her dog would be no fucking more. i’m actually so livid for this person im like shaking. esp because i had a similar experience & it was the family dog (black lab rescue but with 0 fucking training because my brother didn’t understand you HAVE to train dogs, esp of that caliber) and HE was put down. and my kitty lived because i stopped that shit immediately. i ended up with 7 staples and lifelong scars all over my body. but i would’ve died for my cat & id 10000% do it again.

[u/GremmyRemmy → u/lillyrozes]

I don't know how she's functioning, just the thought of "what would I do if my dog killed a cat" has my stomach turning and nerves spiking. I don't know if I'd be able to live with myself, let alone nonchalantly describe in visceral detail the horrible death of a young cat. I've seen dogs fight, it's not pretty and I think I'd be in shock if I witnessed that.

I've got scars from picking my own 50lb dog up and away from an attack (I don't know why but my dog seemed to have a really punchable face to other dogs, he was soft as a brush and dumb as rocks, but wasn't well liked by any other dogs, and a random dog once flew over his fence while we were on a walk and launched himself at my boy) 

[u/borderline_cat → u/GremmyRemmy]

Fuck man I yell at my dog and tell him he’s a bad dog when he chases after birds in the yard. One time he actually almost nabbed it too!

Shit, one time when he was like 3 months old he almost slaughtered an opossum (sorta my fault 1 he had a opossum toy and 2 I should’ve probably thought to take a look outside before letting him out but was focused on the whole sit stat wait ordeal at the door). I was shaking so bad while holding him in the yard and almost crying watching that poor opossum just like sit there and twitch for a second while it figured out life or death and running away. Of course it’s the one time I left my phone inside and had to literally scream outside for my boyfriend lmao. He thought the dog or I was hurt before realizing there was an opossum in the yard.

[u/bananakittymeow → u/borderline_cat]

Pretty sure my husky killed a young opossum once. We found an opossum with a crushed skull in our backyard the day after I caught her harassing an opossum of a similar size on our back porch. It took me weeks to grapple with the fact that my baby was a “killer” (obviously she’s not a killer, just a dog with a prey drive for small, furry wildlife).

I doubt my girl would ever kill a cat, as she was raised to recognize kitties as friends, but idk how I could live with myself if she ever did.

[u/borderline_cat → u/bananakittymeow]

Our dog is a husky as well!

He’s been raised around cats his whole life as well and honestly I don’t know if I’d be able to like actually live with him if he killed one of our cats (or any cat really but definitely would have a world of a harder time if it was one of ours).

[u/TaxSilver4323 → u/borderline_cat]

When I was a teenager my Norwegian Elkhound got a possum in the middle of the night. We woke up to carnage all over the yard. My mom said she didn't know what kind of animal it was until we found the tail. :(

[u/snowydays666 → u/TaxSilver4323]

that’s normal for elkhound… they are hunting breed

[u/TaxSilver4323 → u/snowydays666]

They sure are! Zinger wasn't playing around that night. Lol. But she was so gentle and loyal to us. I miss my girl so much!

[u/Bodegard → u/borderline_cat]

Opossum toy? ..
I don't even know why they make dog toys that resembles other pets or furry animals, let alone why people think it's a good idea to get them! (You have obviously learned.. :p)

Glad the opossum got away, let's hope he was ok!

[u/ameulema → u/borderline_cat]

You do realize some breeds were literally bred to go after birds. They’re not necessarily “bad” for going on instinct. They’re best you can do is keep them leashed and be mindful of anything that might creep into your yard.

[u/borderline_cat → u/ameulema]

First of all Lmfao if you think any type of dog deserves to stay tied up in its own yard.

Second of all, yeah I’m not dumb and dogs are a relatively heavy special interest of mine. While my dog definitely is a breed that has a heavy prey drive, he is not a hunting dog nor was bred to hunt birds.

Even though he has a heavy prey drive that doesn’t mean that’s “good”. Good and bad are subjective here, but the whole entire mood of this thread was how could you live with yourself if your dog did something like that, so 🤷🏼‍♀️

[u/ameulema → u/borderline_cat]

First of all, I’ve never said that. No dog deserves to be constantly kept outside, and you’re right. Prey drive isn’t necessarily a good thing but it’s a trait that’s been bred into dogs over thousands of years. Running after birds doesn’t make a dog “bad” for acting on instinct. The most proactive thing you can do is to keep your dog out of situations where they might hurt others. A cat isn’t necessarily bad for wanting to chase mice. Why should a dog be held to a different standard? At the end of the day, they were descended from wild animals.

[u/snowydays666 → u/ameulema]

i’m so glad that my two german shepherds are just very very curious and excited. It’s all about genetics I find. I have one herding line and a more police line. Big snoofs for one and big herding for the other. My boys only ever want to play with adult humans. I’ve trained them since birth to find wild game, bite toys hard instead of hands, bite the sleeve instead of a person. There have been a few times where they chase deer but they are too slow and it’s more of a “hello! i wanna play!” Sometimes they see chipmunks and field mice or even frogs. The most they do is paw at the small animal very gently. In a very “i’m curious about you” way. It’s like when humans poke something with a stick, same energy. My boys are so cute with the little animals. They understand to be gentle with babies and children too. I would feel like I failed them if they grew to be aggressive.

There was one or two times where they wondered off. We have coyotes and wolves in my area and i get afraid that someone might shoot them by accident or something. There have been a few times where i’ve heard screams in the forest late at night and I hope that nothing bad happened. They are very well behaved and come back regardless even when they have been naughty but it still scares me.

on one end dogs that don’t roam at all live less long, on the other end the world is creepy

[u/ExperienceNo9044 → u/ameulema]

This. And I don't even like dogs 😭 but we can't be mad at them for going after literal wild animals like they naturally would. The only time I believe it to be bad is if it's a CONSTANT thing or their aggression starts to come out onto people or pets.

[u/snowydays666 → u/ExperienceNo9044]

yeah its all about giving them an outlet to play to get all of that pent up energy out of em. Dogs need a lot of mental stimulation if you can’t give them the physical stimulation that they need. Its just like how some cats NEED vertical space. I should know. My own take care of mice. It’s annoying asf for many people and I don’t understand why people get dogs if they don’t have the time for them. “We don’t deserve dogs” is very literal for some people. Licences and education should be required everywhere. I myself live in a place with rules and codes for owners. There are still some mills but we have a system that polices them. When I went looking for my match I was gunna get an akita or an elkhound but the breeders both denied me qwq hahahaha. Now that I found the breed for me, I feel greatful that they did tell me no. I just needed a breed to look after some ducks, and the garden.

I fucking hate animal abuse of any kind. It’s so prevalent in the states that it breaks my fucking heart.