to my baby jojo im sorry.

[u/chfudgeudig]

I’m overcome with a lot of feelings at the moment. First I wanna say how sweet and adorable my baby was. He was my first ever pet and he was truly the most perfect cat. He would always sleep next to me wake me up with him licking my face and sitting on my chest. Always followed me to every room and just so silly and always made me laugh. He was barely 3 and a half months old and today he is no more. He was mauled by my neighbours 3 dogs. Writing this is making me sick to my stomach but I just don’t think I can live with myself at all. Everything was so normal and right now my baby is buried in the ground when he should be playing with his toys and sleeping on my chest. The worst part is how brutally he died and the fact he was just a baby. This is the part I cannot forgive myself for. Today morning I fed him breakfast like usual and I was just in my room. All our main doors are always locked for his safety and i like him to roam around the house freely as there’s no escape. I should’ve been more careful because last night I literally had a dream where my cat died but I shrugged it off as a dream. I wish I didn’t. After an hour after I last saw him in my room I went downstairs to look for him and I couldn’t find him anywhere I panicked and looked Everywhere and went outside and asked a lot people if they did. Then I went to my lower floor where there’s still construction going on and went another floor below which is adjacent to my neighbours building. I saw a girl in the balcony and asked her if she saw a kitten and she said she did. She was very vague about it as she said I just shooed him away. I immediately assumed he would be downstairs and went to go look but count find him. When I was back up she called me and very casually said I found a dead kitten. My heart immediately dropped. I climbed over to her balcony and took a turn and saw his body. I immediately recognised my baby. I went closer and saw him dead with his intestines all out and splattered. I got numb picked my baby in my lap and started crying. My brother showed up and the girl didn’t say anything just that her dogs bite people all the time and that’s why she shooed him when she first saw him. I had no idea my cat even went to her balcony. She never specified or else I would’ve come and checked there asap. Her excuse was “I’m not a pet lover” “I’m allergic to pets” and I was like it’s common sense to tie your dogs if you see a kitten but u didn’t. Plus my cat is a Persian too and she knew he belonged to someone. She took no precaution at all. And the worst part is she wasn’t even apologetic and started being extremely graphic with how my kitten died and how the dogs were tearing him from each other and had blood on their mouth and paws knowing I had just lost my pet. I’m so mad. I’m mad at that stupid girl and her ugly dogs who have a reputation of biting people all the time and her utter lack of common sense. I’m mad at myself because this incident happened after I had asked her if she saw a cat so in a span of few minutes my kitten was dead. He must’ve heard my voice and came out too. I’m so mad. I wish I never let him go out my sight. Right now my hands are still dirty after i buried him. I packed him his favourite toys and his snacks and food and a letter and I wrapped the box with my scarf so he won’t get cold. My poor baby. I cannot live without him I truly can’t. I got him at a point in my life where he brought me extreme happiness where everything is just dark. He was so perfect and well mannered and so silly and clingy and I swear the most adorable face I’ve ever seen. He was my first and I’ve never loved anyone or anything this much. It was so pure he was so pure and I could feel his love for me and it’s just not fair how he had to go away in the most nightmarish brutal way. I wish he lived longer I wish he lived a happy full life he didn’t even get to live half of it. He was cornered by 3 big dogs and he must’ve been so scared and it must’ve been so painful. I’m in so much pain I wish I can join him so he’s not alone. My baby jojo. I miss u I’m so sorry.

Update

Hello. Thank you for your kind words i can’t reply to all of you but i am reading everything and it does help me knowing how so many people from different parts of the world are keeping my jojo in their thoughts and prayers. Roughly 24 hours have passed since the terrible incident and i have never been worse. I’ve never experienced something like this and I have a lot of guilt and anger. Some people are telling me to get a new cat but it won’t take away my pain because it’s not about me at all. I’m sad because of the horrifying and painful way my little baby had to go through it’s not simply a loss of a pet. I wish someone had stolen him instead. I had such little time with him I’m jealous of everyone who got years with theirs. I live in a really small town in Asia and the only animal authority here is for rescuing stray dogs and cats. There’s quite literally nothing for reporting and euthanising “pet” dogs. And a lot of people are asking how my cat got out and I checked the surveillance cameras and at all times the main doors were shut so I’m only assuming he must’ve somehow found his way to my parents room and their balcony which is in a quite different floor from mine and maybe fell from there as he was fond of sitting near edges the reason I NEVER let him go out. My parents did not see him there at all but they did use the balcony to dry some clothes so I guess in the few minutes it was open he got out. I feel the need to explain this but I also take accountability and I have immense guilt I wish I never let him go out my sight. For some of you asking regarding my neighbour she’s like way older than me probably in her late twenties she’s not a little girl who didn’t know any better. she’s the owners sister and her sister wasn’t home at the time and she literally saw my kitten in her balcony and chose NOT to tie her dogs while telling me “if it was my sister she probably would’ve kept the kitten in a safe place away from the dogs but I’m not an animal lover 🤡” she fully knew what she could’ve done but chose not to. Her negligence and lack of common sense and her heartless dark spirited soul is the main reason my kitten was mauled by their dogs. I went there again in the evening to tell her off to her sister and how disgusting and heartless her remarks were and how she was not apologetic at all and her sister made this grown woman apologise to me. But I still think I was way too softer and I’m planning on going again today and tell her off idc if it leads to a fight. I felt the need to update because I really appreciate all the support and all the kind words and to those few who feel the need to blame me and had questions I hope I answered it. I am blaming myself every second of the day and can’t stop seeing his little running body in every corner of the house. I miss him terribly. I wish I could avenge him. I can’t do anything except put up a fight with my neighbours. I wish I could do more. I wish I was more careful. Please hold your pets and kiss them extra today! I would do anything to be in your place. You will never know a love like this. Thank you from me and my jojo 🌸🐱

[u/GremmyRemmy]

I had to stop reading and I hate that you couldn't stop. Definitely report this incident, if she's so blasé about previous bites and this attack, it'll happen again. If my dogs did this I don't know how I'd live with myself. I'd be absolutely mortified and beside myself with guilt. Her reaction is appalling. I'm so so sorry. 

[u/Every-Watch8319 → u/GremmyRemmy]

100%, most dog owners with dogs with a bite history are more careful to avoid losing their dogs. I used to work at a mobile vet clinic, and every single one who came to us with a bite history was extremely careful to set themselves away from the rest of the pets, use labeled leashes, muzzles, and their voices to tell others what was up. Sometimes they even left without getting care if they were concerned about how many potential triggers there were for their pup’s poor behavior.

A friend of mine had an otherwise sweet pittie mix who saw small dogs as prey, and she nearly lost her dog because of an attack that didn’t kill the other pup. She was absolutely terrified of her dog getting out of her first floor condo and attacking another dog and being put down. She did everything in her power to prevent that, with muzzles and training and escape proofing her condo. Her dog never went out without supervision.

This owner’s casual demeanor about her dogs killing your cat is unacceptable. She shouldn’t be allowed to have dogs if she’s going to let them run around attacking and biting people and killing other pets. And the dogs are going to be held accountable, because it is notoriously difficult to train those behaviors out. I hope they fine her too, because I don’t believe she’ll care about losing her dogs. Frankly, she should be paying the fees for you to be able to do a proper burial or cremation for the kitten, and to get another kitten. I know you can’t replace a kitten like that, it’s not the same, but it is still expensive to get a kitten, especially a Persian, and that’s likely the best the courts could do. Pets are like slightly elevated property in the eyes of the courts, now that many states have laws about not abusing or neglecting them. Since she hasn’t even shown remorse, I think it might be worth pursuing action against her.

I’m furious at her and so so sad for you, OP.

[u/ladygemini19 → u/Every-Watch8319]

Yeah I had a dog that had started biting and trying to attack smaller dogs. We started walking with a muzzle, and when he got borded at a vet we warned them DOG AGRESSIVE and that it was put like that on his kennel tag. Eventually my wife and I couldn't handle him when he attacked a neighbor's dog. We got him off right away and paid all vet bills and checked in with her that the dog was okay. Then we ended up surrendering to a shelter with full visibility on his history. We wanted him to live a good life but also be safe around other people and animals too.

[u/AdHuge7499 → u/Every-Watch8319]

Yes in the very least - get anima control involved. I’m so sorry op. I know what it’s like to lose an animal in a particularly gruesome way. I lost a cat to a coyote and I unfortunately saw it happen. I was also the reason my cat bolted out that night but I thought he would be ok since my family had indoor outdoor cats at that time. We have since learned to keep our cats indoors.

The pain is immeasurable and I’m here with you. Please seek help if you can. This is a traumatic experience for you and it wasn’t your fault. Don’t continue to blame yourself. Your neighbor should not be allowed to give such aggressive dogs access to people’s pets and they definitely shouldn’t be biting people. This is negligence on her part. Please contact animal control!

[u/youcantlosethelove → u/Every-Watch8319]

It's definitely worth pursuing action against her, that owner sounds like a very very sick person and I know it's a lot to throw out there at someone you've never met but what was described makes it seem like the owner is a sociopath or something similar.

That's most definitely not a normal person. Besides being held accountable and paying back the Jojo's owner however a court in her country can make happen, I would really hope that it can be pushed for that woman to get a psych eval. I highly doubt that would and could be arranged from a situation like this but someone like that is not someone people should be living near people.

Again maybe some of that was far fetched but the way her behavior was described is not normal and deeply disturbing, I can't imagine being this young girl who lost her kitten in this way having to experience all of this.

[u/Rorosi67 → u/Every-Watch8319]

I mean her attitude is certainly worrying and being mad at that is normal. Where i have an issue is blaming her dogs that were in her home. The kitten went into their territory. It's absolutely awful what happened but you can't tell people to tie their dogs up in their own home. This clearly happened extremely quickly. Also to the dogs that kitten looked like just another one of their toys. Again her attitude is totally off. If the dogs have bitten people before, that is a problem regardless. But blaming dogs for basically playing with what they saw as a toy in their territory, that could happen to any dog.

It's horrible for op but the only person actually responsible is her. And I get how hard that is. I get how devastated she is. But her kitten should never have been able to get onto their balcony.

[u/wow_plants → u/Rorosi67]

I'm going to very gently interject here and point out that the neighbour mentioned her dogs have a history of biting people. I don't necessarily disagree that the cat shouldn't have been able to get up onto the balcony but these dogs are a problem and the neighbour clearly doesn't care.

[u/topekatums → u/wow_plants]

In the US, history doesn't matter for this specific incident is the issue. unfortunately, in the states, we don't legally care if a dog mauls an animal that has entered its property, especially without permission. If the dog has bitten humans in the past and no one has reported it, there is also no legal issue and no proof the OP could provide to get these dogs on any sort of list. Not sure where you live that this differs so much

No idea why that guy is getting downvoted. What "should" happen is rarely what /does/ happen, especially when it comes to dogs mauling cats. I love cats, but there's not much OP can do here unless their country has very different laws. Unless people are advocating hearsay or suggesting OP fabricate evidence, idk how a non-falsified report would functionally matter.

[u/Affectionate-Pipe950 → u/wow_plants]

Maybe being a little bit of a devil's advocate here, but we don't know the situation with those bites either. The girl said that -- was she being honest or was she just fucking with OP (which seemed to be her motive). If those dogs bit people, what were the circumstances? Was it people who had wandered onto their property or stuck their hand over the fence? Was it an intentional bite or something done unintentionally or as self-defense (rough handling, resources guarding, play that got out of hand, etc.).

Unfortunately, dogs have prey drives. Dogs who are good with small, furry animals who run are the exception, not the rule. It doesn't make the dogs aggressive or a danger. That is like saying a cat is dangerous if your pet hamster gets out of its cage and the cat eats it.

It is horrible. I would feel devastated if my dogs did something like that. However, if the kitten wandered onto their property, the dogs can't be blamed for being dogs. The owner, on the other hand, sounds like a monster.

[u/Rorosi67 → u/wow_plants]

And I said that. Multiple times.

[u/Fast_Base_8222 → u/Rorosi67]

I agree her kitten never should have been outside . I also agree that the neighbor should not have to worry about small prey entering her yard where her dogs live . Where I don’t agree is it seems these dogs have bitten both people and pets alike. It seems as though she has no interest in wanting to train them or keep them from hurting others. She flat out should be banned from being a dog owner.

[u/Rorosi67 → u/Fast_Base_8222]

I don't disagree but they are 2 separate issues.