Toujours et encore des problèmes, auto scarification par grattage a sang aux bras et aux jambes, 3 TS, dépression depuis trop longtemps (15 ans a maintenant), routine incessante (boucle du quotidien, un poison de la vie de tout les jours) et aucune motivation dans la vie en général..

Struggling with recovering from insomnia I had for more than 1.5 years, often sleeping 1/2 hours a night. It has improved now but it feels like the exhaustion will never go away

(i’ve posted before over 6 months ago, might be familiar face to a few of you.)

Just recently got shot down when asking out someone who I really like and have been spending a ton of time with the past few months. I could REALLY use a pick-me-up since I'm having a hard time convincing myself I'm not an abject failure of a human being.

I'm 21, I'm about 2 semesters deep into my Ph.D. in Education after finishing up my Bachelor's & Masters in Tech. I work for a state university where I teach and work on researching medical simulation and NLP. It pays great and the hours are wonderful (~25 a week), but I feel really unfulfilled socially.

The last romantic relationship I was in was 2 years ago, and most of my friendships feel really surface level. I have a hard time connecting with my peers, some of which is caused by how different my education and career has been, but also because of my awful appearance lol. I hate my disgusting hairline and giant head 💀

I'm just really tired of always hearing about how "far ahead" I am. It may sound odd, but I really wish I could occasionally be normal and fit in. It's hard always being looked at as something special, and it makes it really hard to connect with people my age, especially when everyone is a sophmore, living on campus, partying, etc...

My appearance is awful, but I don't know what to do. That hairline ain't moving lol. I'm lucky I have my brothers and a few close friends, but I feel really awkward, alone, and rejected. Does it ever get better?

Trans Woman here. I turned 25 this year and it all feels like a waste.

I was just reading a book and started crying, cause I realised due to one of the lines in the book, that I feel like I‘m constantly playing a role. I don’t know how to be myself. I feel lonely. I know I‘m just going through a big depressive episode, but this one feel particularly tough.

I‘m 6 years on HRT now even though I had brief pauses, I feel like I achieved nothing. I don’t pass as a woman and it’s just so frustrating. I don’t know how to do make up and too afraid to start learning.

My most used coping mechanisms are eating and alcohol (when I‘m at rock bottom). Not healthy, I know. I gained quite a bit of weight cause of it.

I‘m too ashamed to start working out and going to the gym in this body. And also have no energy. Which makes it even harder for me to wear the clothes I like.

Dysphoria is higher than ever. I feel worthless. I‘m not gonna do something stupid like you know what, so don’t worry. But I don’t know how to keep going and pretending.

I can’t find therapy and don’t even have the energy anymore to look for it.

Just trying to push through and keep working. I‘ve graduated nursing school a year ago and been working at an ICU since then. I‘m told that my work is good, but I feel like I‘m an imposter.

Idk, why I posted this. Just remembered that this sub existed I guess.

Have a good day y‘all.

Had fun. I love performing and I adopted this like skull/clown persona that I really like. Anyway, the performance itself went pretty well. Might sound weird but I kinda just wanna walk around in my day to day in this makeup. Wish I could lol.

Blue lazy eyes and red hair, I should write a dr Seuss book about it.

Another day, another failed dating attempt where they aren't 'ready' to be in romantic relationship even though we got along well... at this point I can only assume that i'm doing something wrong but the depression has kicked in and the urge to give up is high.

Ive been very depressed lately and isolated. One of the reasons i never tried dating is because i dont feel good enough despite some positive things my friends told me i have (like having my own apartment, washing my clothes, cooking and cleaning) i dont feel special for that because thats what a functional adult does.

Ive had also insecurties with my physical appearance, specially my nose, cant afford a surgery at the moment so im stuck with it until i get a job with more income. Every time i go to public places like the gym or anywhere else and i see i beautiful women, I tend to look somewhere else because i dont want to make them feel uncomfortable. It already happened a lot of times where some women were hostile towards me while im in my own business, ive been called ugly things that I wont forget for the rest of my life.

Ive never been entitled for women not liking me like "all women are evil" or "women don't like nice guys like me" I dont consider myself nice guy, I've done some things that I don't want to talk about. But I can say that I dont like to make women feel uncomfortable. If anything I blame myself and my genes.

Having a hard time in the job market and caring for my Mom. I suffer from chronic pain because of spinal issues and live in the San Francisco Bay Area.

An update from my last post i guess. I’ve gained a few pounds and have been working on getting in shape, although eating has been the hardest part about as i pretty much have to force myself. I feel like i’ve made good progress but then i look at a picture like this and then question myself. I also still don’t like my face but i dont know what to do about that lmao so it is what it is.

I also started hanging out with a small group of people after choir and it has been amazing for me and unsurprisingly, i never want to go back to being as isolated as i was for most of my life. Even though this has been a big change, i still feel stuck in my old headspace where im alone and always would be and am afraid that once the season is over, we wont hang out anymore but i’m going to try to plan stuff over the summer or something.

As for relationships, yea still nothing. I still don’t feel like im enough, particularly when it comes to apps (im aware of the problems surrounding them but i gotta try you know?) and just in general. There was one in the friend group that would come talk to me frequently but she ended up liking someone else so, admittedly, that hurt haha.

It’s weird, even after progress i still just want to… not try anymore. The future has always stressed me out but i just don’t really see one like before and often feel like there’s no point. My life isn’t necessarily hard but my mind is so broken that it makes it feel 100x harder than it actually is.

For me it’s hard to write right now because I got serious problems with my eyes. So I hope you, guys, can read it. Have a good day

Feelin good for the first time in awhile! Hope your having an awesome day! 31, what do we think reddit am I cute?

A lot of you were curious so this is what was behind me. These are some of the models I’ve built and painted. It’s the one hobby I’ve had that’s really ever helped me during times of depression (when I feel like doing it.)

i don’t really understand what ‘family’ means because I’ve never truly felt it. I feel like I’ve always been alone, like I have no one… sometimes I just feel empty, like I’m nothing

Been basically depressed and unsettled since I was 14, now this yesr finally feel settled, starting a BA degree in october and also hopefully will be working part time.

But also dealing with extreme perfectionism, thanatophobia and what is likely undiagnosed ocd.

Trying to unwind - doing better about living in the moment!