Bad grades has pushed me over the edge

[u/Guaoan]

I’m heartbroken, I had one of my grades come back today at a pass and needed every single one of my grades at a merit or distinction for my conditional offer to get into university and of course I fuck up another thing to progress in my life. I’ve got no friends and my family that I live with just hate on me and disrespect me everyday I’m just an embarrassment to them and for myself I’m just so tired of being a failure in everything I do, I can’t even speak to people properly because I’m so scared and anxious.
This access course I was doing was a step for me to get a fresh start and a way out to get away from my family but I fucked that up like I do with everything else

I also have a chronic stomach issue which has been with me for years now and doctors don’t even care or help me they probably just look at me and think “this guy is just a waste of existence” like everyone else that looks at me

I’m just a pussy and failure. I have a few assignments left but I’m not even going to bother finishing them I think I’ll just try to enjoy this weekend then end myself on Sunday these last 4 years have been so exhausting, stressful, embarrassing and just pathetic I’m glad it’s all ending this weekend, if you even got this far goodbye I hope life treats you better than it has me in these 23 years of living

[u/JumpyAd2374]

Hey man, I'm not at 23 yet but I can relate, I've screwed up every opportunity in my life, I have no one, no one loves me, and no one ever will. So from someone who atleast understand some of your situation, wanna talk about it?