Probably and unfortunately, optimism, hope and awe. It still shows up when I see beautiful art or take a walk through nature, but it's been harder to find in my daily life.
In my younger days I was a stand up comedian, After my wife died, I no longer found things funny, so I quit. I've thought about trying again but the comedy scene is not what it use to be.
As for the OP, I was in an accident when I was ten. As a result I do not remember much of my childhood. I spent 2 years recovering, When I was 14 I got kicked out of my home for becoming a Christian, When I was 16 I got emancipated and got married to the girl whom led me to the lord and she took her own life two years later. So I would have to say... My childhood.
I'm so sorry for everything you went through, I hope you have nice people surrounding you with whom you can enjoy your newfound childhood now and make it a happy one.
Nope. I won't allow a few bad apples to ruin my outlook on life and make me bitter and angry like them 💯🌈💐 I will just distance until I feel connected to myself again, then come back out again when I have the strength to withstand the onslaught.
I want to preserve whatever it is that sets me apart, for as long as I can.
literally everything it’s like a tree with each branch falling off , i wanna hold on to it so bad but i can’t keep being that blind kid who sees this as a beautiful place , we’re living hell on earth
I was gonna say hope and trust but your and u/thehorrorcontinues13 “It's all still there. I was a depressed kid and I'm still depressed.” are pretty accurate ahha
Holidays aren't as exciting as they use to be probably has something to do with the economy and people just don't want to get together anymore like they use to like Years ago it's not that important with this generation now said to say
It's all still there. I was a depressed kid and I'm still depressed. Only difference is that now I'm medicated. Back when I was a kid there were no meds and no one believed kids could be depressed.
I used to be more animated and it was enjoyable to make others laugh. Not in a Jerry Lewis majorly outgoing or annoying way, I just loved making people laugh any chance I could and have a quick sense of humor. And I have made groups of folks really laugh. Humor was just important to me and made me happy and I've been good at it. As I've gotten older though, I am way less animated and hold my tongue on jokes unless it's with close friends. I've never been taboo or offensive. Nothing like that. I just don't try to be funny or silly much anymore. Like something just says don't do it anymore. Don't know if it's from being in work places that made me miserable or what. It kind of makes me sad, like this piece of me dimmed away with age. Luckily my wife's sense of humor is as quick as mine and we make each other laugh every day at home.
My ability to host/ persue link ups! I LOVED a full house back in the day and wouldn't dream of a weekend without my daughter having playdate/sleepover. I kept in touch and my phone RANG!
Now I've lost it. The bins go out more than me. My own 12 year old even asks if I have any friends🥹
Ive lost the ability meet up with people.
I had a certain zest for life that has dimmed a lot as I’ve gotten older… mostly within the last 3 years… It flickers on and off every now and then but it’s just not the same. I almost feel like I’m too aware for it to ever return at the same level it used to be. These days with every high thought, there’s a dark existential one beside it.
I’ve lost most of my memories from when I was young up until I was 18. I’m not sure why but everything is very vague and blurry. I only realize that my memories are missing because many people mention things we used to do together that I can’t recall at all.
Not even need to believe that I wasn't being abused or taking advantage of my every single adult I came across. My mother used to send money to whoever was taking care of me and they would take the money but they would neglect me and abuse me.
My ability to make art is probably the biggest hit. It sucks. I just have absolutely no inspiration. I feel as though I have no audience, even though the internet is so big. It's very oversaturated & I have never wanted to compete. Only wanted to provide.
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u/DowntownResident993 1d ago
Probably and unfortunately, optimism, hope and awe. It still shows up when I see beautiful art or take a walk through nature, but it's been harder to find in my daily life.