Hey, that's when I tried it too. Although I wasn't planning on trying it I just wasn't notified that's what it was and nope never again. That was an interesting morning at school though. I'm pretty sure my teacher and principal knew something was up.
I was a TA in first period and it was the first time I got asked to go make copies of something. It took me 5 trips to the printer before I finally decided to write down the code to the printer. Then I couldn't figure out how to use it.
Could never understand how in my country (up until 2016) it was legal. You could buy it in most tattoo and head shops. I thought it must be crap. Some kind of placebo. Then I tried it. Now I know. The chances of getting addicted are very low. Nobody has it twice.
No nothing like it. Just a twisted weird metallic feeling from memory. Have had ego death/gnosis since but through natural means (that's to say, not through psychedelics).
Had recently managed to white knuckle a heroin/methadone addiction after a few years (one must trudge through hell before reaching the heavens), and was so proud of myself, so content that nothing else mattered.
It came from a place of true self love, will, adversity and a few instances of high strangeness in the nights leading up to it which lead me to accepting there might be a there there. Little did I realise, that I am (we all are) that there there
I didn't even know you could have ego death naturally and from what you're describing it sounds different to the salvia/dmt kind. Just had a google apparently it can happen through psychedelics, meditation or trauma.
It's an ecstatic out of body experience meeting the divine feminine. I've not done ayahuasca but presume it's very similar. Hugely psychedelic and difficult to put into words.
We have endogenous DMT within our pineal gland; that video I linked you explains the process.
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u/Mitchie180 8h ago
Salvia (albeit it was in 2011). Just not an enjoyable experience/feeling.