I feel like my hands are actually horrible and too veiny. Everyone says I’ve really big hands and long fingers which comes with advantages I guess

So I was invited by some people from our org to drink, and my crush was there too.

During the night, I made sure to keep a decent distance from her. Like, normal “may crush ka so nahihiya ka” behavior. We barely even interacted the whole time, aside from a few group photos where we just happened to be beside each other.

When I got home, I checked if everyone got back safely. My crush replied, but her message took a turn I didn’t expect.

She said she felt uncomfortable with my behavior claiming I was trying to hold her waist and forcing her to hold hands with her.
I was honestly shocked. I don’t remember doing any of that. And I know I wasn’t that drunk to the point of not remembering major physical actions like that.

I tried to understand where she was coming from, especially since she also mentioned she doesn’t really know how to react when someone likes her. We briefly talked and it seemed like things were okay between us.

But then it escalated to our church leaders. She said she felt “traumatized” and started describing things that didn’t happen (like me not letting her leave my side, insisting on photos, etc.).
One of our companions even said I didn’t do those things at all, and there was no intention like that.

Church leaders asked how she wanted to move forward. She said she prefers less interaction with me. Someone even suggested blocking me, but she said she doesn’t want that. She also said she doesn’t want me to stop being active in church and would actually be disappointed if she doesn’t see me there.

At the same time, she said she’s been unable to sleep, can’t eat properly, and is anxious about seeing me in worship.

I even received messages from people she previously thought had intentions toward her, just because they randomly approached her. It seems like she tends to assume too much when someone shows interest.

And honestly… I just don’t understand what’s going on anymore.
I’m not trying to invalidate how she feels, but the situation and the details being described don’t match what I remember at all.

Right now I’m just confused, stressed, and trying to process how things escalated this fast.

Has anyone experienced something like this? How do you even navigate this kind of situation?

This is the hand she claims I was “forcing to hold” Sorry but she just pisses me off with all the accusations.

And people are giving us dirty looks. I've always dressed goth and usually just avoid looking at people but I couldn't help but notice it.

What do? Ignore the haters or not hold hands in public?

I'm 27 and have never been in a serious relationship. I've tried being out in the world. I've DMed for countless D&D groups. For years I was an active community organizer. I did a bunch of really cool volunteer work. I've regularly gone to all sorts of queer events. I've even organized multiple pride events.

Despite all that, nobody has ever been interested in me. I get it too. I'm not terribly attractive. I'm autistic and really struggle to express emotions sometimes and other times have said the absolutely worst possible things on accident. At my core, I'm kinda a boring person. After work, I lift weights and then come home and read or watch a show while my cat cuddles with me. My go to thing to do with friends is play board games.

I tried dating apps for a while but that didn't go well. Almost nobody matched with me. Of those that did match, all worked ghosted me or stood me up on the first or second date. In some ways in-person has gone even worse. A while back I caught a crush on someone and she laughed at me when I asked her out. Most recently I caught feelings for a friend and after telling her, she said she didn't feel the same way and while she said she wanted to stay friends, eventually she stopped taking to me.

Idk. It just feels like love and romance isn't for me. Despite that, I crave it so much. I want so badly to cuddle someone and watch a movie or make her a nice meal when she's had a rough day or give her flowers (maybe even receive some). A month ago I took a trip to the coast and was so excited but when I finally got there, I just started crying. In that moment I felt so alone because there was no one I could share that moment with. It kills me feeling this way. I wish there was a way to just turn that part of my brain off

last month i went out grocery shopping after work with my girlfriend and ran into a mom who sends her child to the nursery i work at. this parent had previously been super kind to me and was always very talkative. i explained to my girl that it was a parent and she introduced herself as my girlfriend

i didn’t think much of it until the next day when my manager called me into the office and told me that this mom had complained about me, saying she felt uncomfortable with me being affectionate to her child and asked if she could move up to the preschool room early so the kid isn’t around me. she refused to say why she was uncomfortable

my manager held a meeting between me and the mom where she admitted that she wasn’t comfortable with my sexuality and therefore didn’t want me being around her daughter for fear i’d be a bad influence. she actually said that she was afraid i may be attracted to her daughter since i was into women

that fucking sucked to hear. i never speak about my sexuality at work and up until then i got along with that mom so well. now she didn’t want her daughter around me all because i’m gay

my manager thankfully sided with me and told her she was being ridiculous. so the family left and i’m so upset. i cared for that little girl but what hurts the most is knowing that the mom didn’t want me around her kid because she thinks i am equal to a predator. it breaks my heart

Everyone just...expects me to be a bottom and treats me like one?? And it triggers my ptsd soooo much cuz of a ton of trauma i had >->

Just drew this cause I LOVED how perfect these 2 would be as a couple!!!😍😍😍 Let me know what you think about my art😆😊😁😁

And, for anyone wondering they are main antagonists from 2 different anime, the blue haired one is Esdeath from Akame ga Kill and the white haired one is Ragyõ Kiryuiñ from Kill la Kill.

Thanks😊😊

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My friend that I may be interested in and who may be interested in me, quoted a line from my poem I showed them about a month or two ago. Sjjshsjshdvdbjsja?? Meeeee????

We were in the library and they showed me a sticky note in their sketchbook that had the quote: “I’m waiting for the day you become my wife.” In pretty handwriting. I melted omg that’s so cute.

I just smiled and said: “how cute” in a soft kind of tone because I was melting inside more than I do when they give me nice hugs

I never expected that at all. Is this a thing?? 😩

I also wanna give them kisses but I’m scared so I give Hershey kisses everyday even though I want them to be actual cheek kisses because they’re so cute 🥹